"It was another night. Terrific but dark and hopeless. He was already 5 pegs down and making the 6th one when I stared at him. He knew why I was staring him. It's been 3 months since I first asked him to meet. I have been continuously playing the same message in my ears every day that he wants to meet me too. Finally we met. And all this happened. He was so drunk, he didn't know when he fell asleep. But how could I sleep. I just kept looking at him. He looked like a cute innocent child in his sleep. Somewhere I knew it would never be worth seeing him like this again. I wanted to hold him in my eyes. I need to understand that he's not an alcoholic. He drink because he enjoy it. And it has now become a habit. He drink almost every day but he is not an alcoholic. 2 hours later, he put his hand on my hand. I was so scared that I closed my eyes tight. I didn't dare to open my eyes anymore. I knew it was him. I didn't bother him to take his hand. I kept on pressing my eyes and my heart kept on beating fast. I didn't know when I fell asleep then. All l remember is when I woke up I found him close to me. And the story ends here but the love is not over. Finally, he has decided to ignore me. It was more of an ego tussle now. I used to text him, please don't go away from me, don't leave me, talk to me. I salute my guts to text him, to love him, expecting him to love me. He didn't bother to respond. Yeah I know he has other better and beautiful priorities and I respect that too. I don't want to comment on those better and beautiful priorities. I just want to write him, to write us. I stood there for almost a month and left after that. He kept on drinking, enjoying and all. A few more such days and nights I finally gave up on him. I used to think that he needed to detox himself and his life. But he is all fine. He removed from his life by forcing me to leave him because he has other better and beautiful priorities. I gave up on him. But still I love him. I don't know why. All I do is pray every day for his success, happiness, prosperity and joy. All the boys who claim to love me like moon and back and all, need to know this. Tonight, while writing all this, I'm full of tears in my eyes and he must have half bottle down or must be busy with his better and beautiful priorities. I wish we could meet again sometime. One thing I need to repeat - he drink almost every day but he is not an alcoholic. ©Shagun Sharma"