"White Behind My Smile People see me being strong But don't know what's going wrong I help others day and night While inside, nothing feels right Since you left me, dearest PaaNo one sees how far I am I keep smiling every dayThough my heart has lost its way "Stay strong," they tell me all the time Not knowing how hard I try To walk alone on this hard roadCarrying such a heavy load Their wishes come like shopping lists Of things they want and can't resist But no one asks what I might need My own dreams left there to bleed Remember Paa, you used to say "Just name it, I'll find a way" You'd look into my eyes and know The wishes I was scared to show This strength that everyone can see Has become too heavy for me Making compromises each day While my own dreams slip away I miss you Paa, I miss you so You were the one who used to know When I was hurting deep inside When tears were hard for me to hide Behind my smile, if they could see All the pain inside of me Not because I am weak or small But because I'm human after all I keep managing, keep giving too Like I promised I would do But sometimes wish they'd understand I need someone to hold my hand They list their wants but never pause To ask what makes my heart so raw No one looks deep into my eyes Like you did, to hear my silent cries ©SAINDU"