"Self Talk I just wanna be all alone in the middle of the beach where no one will staring at me and no one will disturb me because I am fed up with this fucking life. Just wanna drink alcohol and smoke lots of cigarettes to get out of this wholly shit for a while. Hold on wait a second this is not a reason to go into this fucking hell , I am not a coward I can deal with it. If I will not be able to deal with it than no one else will help me out to come out this fucking shit. @storyinnator"